Time spent writing today: 23 minutes
Words written today: 354
Time spent writing so far: 54.6 hours
Number of words: 26171

Today, I had a lot of trouble getting started with writing. I haven't written anything for nearly a week. I am feeling confused about the structure of my novel. I don't know what I want to write next. The whole book feels like a confused jumble of disparate parts that don't fit together. It's a bit discouraging.

One of the hardest things about writing this book is that I've never written a book before. I don't know what success looks like. I don't know what success feels like. I can only trust that the incremental steps I make each day towards writing the book will get me closer to where I want to go.

Some days when I'm writing, I feel more like a sculptor then a writer. I'm taking this idea in my mind that is perfect and pristine and trying to take clay lumps of words and combine them together into some structure resembling the beautiful picture in my mind. I'm not really making something new. I'm trying to take these ideas that I already have and reshape them until they fit a beautiful pattern. When I lose the idea of the pattern in my head, the writing becomes much harder.

But, I still carry on writing. I haven't written in a week, I don't know where I'm going, I don't know how this will turn out, but I'm going to try and keep on with the work. I hope everyone else out there with projects they are working on keeps on going too.